THE BOOK OF LOVE
By Rebecca Masina
Love at first… you are not
only able to love yourself but to also love your better half unconditionally.
Love is something else. It cannot be defined, it is UN explainable yet we love
like there is no tomorrow. We fall in love and do crazy stupid things; but it
is a great feeling to do them. We go all the way to impress and satisfy our
better halves. We go to the extremes to make and keep them happy.
This is my story…. The best
thing which might be the one thing that kills me is that I love without limit.
I may not be the best lover a guy can ever ask for, but I don’t lessen my love.
When I love I love, but the question is do I get the same love back? It is not
easy to love with your whole heart and still stick around even though you do
not receive the love back or to be cheated on. Cheating comes in many ways. It
may not be with another person but not receiving the love that you deserve is
also cheating from your better half.
If one does not love, then
they should make it clear to the next person that they do not love them the way
they think that they are loved. Tell them straight that they are just for time
pushing; tell them that they should not get their hopes high with the
relationship. Giving people false hope hurts hey, big time.
Well I loved and truly loved
but I never got the same love back. Maybe it was me, but I have noticed that
no, it was not me but the people that I fall in love with, they do not have the
same motive as me. They had their own plans and motives and they were not love
but time pushing. One even kept me a secret for over four years but because of
the love I had; I did not worry about that.
Well after all those years
of playing and all, and then I met M*, well then that is where real love was
shown and appreciated. Gosh it felt like a dream. M* loved and so did I. I have
never in my life experienced love like that. It was so good, great. I couldn’t
have asked for a better guy in my life. Thought that I will spend my life with
him. *A girl is allowed to over dream lol* Well then life happened. Someone
played the right music and won him to the dance.
I seemed to have lost hope
afterwards. I will never find the right person for me. That was when I was
wrong about everything. Love finds you, not the other way. Well then I decided
to stay single for a long time which it was not that long when friends from MGI
have invited me to come and celebrate one of our friends birthday with. I have
just turned 22 and it was a great feeling. At the party I never even thought
that I will find love or fall in love. I was a jolly person, having fun was the
plan and it is what I did. Days passed and weeks also then suddenly a guy whom
was on the party messaged me.
We became friends and spoke
a lot till we decided to meet and enjoy the day of reconciliation together with
his friends at his Kasi. It was a great day, meeting people and getting to know
kasi. The same day we fell in love. As
Rebecca I thought it was only a time pushing thing as I have given up on love.
Days and time passed and I realised that this guy cannot be a pass–a-by but a
guy for keeps.
Well I stopped everything
for him. Neglected my friends, life and focused on him. He is my world, my
king. I would do anything just to be with him. We spent the whole December
together as if we were married. He did not take time to introduce me to his
family. That’s a point where I saw that games are over and it is time to focus
on real life. The days of playing are over, the days of fooling around.
He makes me laugh, we spend
more time together that even his friends were so jealous that I was taking him
away from them. Time passed and love grew even bigger but to the disappointment
of it he wanted me to cut off some of the most important people in my life
which it was not part of the plan. Relationships are hard to keep. You have to
compromise somewhere somehow. Nothing comes easy in life if it is meant to be.
We all have our own views of
perfect/good relationship. The one I am in no one could define it. We forgot
that we have friends. All we did was to be with one another and the rest did
not matter. It is like nothing exists but the two of us. It is like that love
that you only read about in books and see in the movies.
I am not bragging about it
because nothing lasts forever but what I do is to cherish the love that I get
and be thankful to the Lord for such a blessing He is about to bless us with.
Love without Limit...
appreciate the little you get.
Miss Masina.
