Dear Dad...

Everything was fine, everything was going ok. How did we get to this stage? Is this really happening? Vele i lost you? Just like that? Dude the pain you left me with i cant bare it. Its way too painful daddy. I want to believe that you are in a better place now. Where theres no pain. Yes pops you were in so much pain i didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to talk to you. But i was always there by your side. You couldn't even see me properly, you only knew it was me because of my voice. I watched you every weekend screaming in pain. It was way much for me to handle. However I've never thought that you would leave me. I prayed day in and out. The last time i saw you was the most painful day of my life. How you were screaming of pain  how you were breathing. You didn't even look like the guy i know. My best friend... Ive never lived my life not even a week would pass without us talking. Now no you and i dont know how to begin. Daddy ntse ole strong hlem, what happened? Theres so much i wanted to tell you. The last weekend i saw you i asked you to heal and you said ketla leka ngwanaka... Those words they gave me hope daddy. I held your fingers and your vibrating yeeer. Kanty that was your goodbye. You know im your girl and without you things are gonna be hard. 💞 Dude can i see you one last time ke??? Papa.. Love you soo much... And you know that!