Take a Breather Girl

 I don't know but I believe I gave it my all. If it wasn't meant to be mine then who am I to fight it? I loved, loved so hard to a point where I Didn't even think the end is possible. Taking the L for the second time. Getting burned for the second time and knowing me and my heart, there's still lots of love there. I don't know how to feel or react. Hurt I am but tears refuse to fall. How do I let go wheny tears don't wanna fall and let the pain out? It's hard. It feels like a setup. However, if it had to happen then it happened. I guess forever doesn't exist or maybe it doesn't exist in my world. I Feel used at the same time I am happy knowing I didn't cheat on my feelings. They say when you love, only give what you get. With me I give my all. I leave no space for disappointment. When the heart loves it loves with no limits. Took a second chance and thought it would be different but I got burned. I had so much planned, one time even Thanked God for this opportunity and asked for guidance. It hurts knowing that I am so confused on how, why, when. I thought I had it all. But it slipped through my heart. How am I different not receive the same? Who did I wrong? I apologize every second. Am I crushed? To the finest. Time wasted? Nah because I enjoyed every bit of it. Will I give it another shot? Definitely, with a different being. The experience was out of this world I can tell. Though verbal and emotional abuse was always there. I chose to oversee it. What an experience. I wish my heart would let go and tears fall so I can let go of all the pain. God heals. I Trust.